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Thursday, 26 April 2012

  • The Importance of Being Thursday

    I wrote this paper for college as a non-fiction piece. Yes, I got an "A" on it. Why not? It's about Mark. :) 

     

     

    THE IMPORTANCE OF BEING THURSDAY

     

     

    I know people that love Saturday. I knowpeople that love Friday because it is the day before Saturday. These peoplelove Saturday almost as much as they hate Monday. They hate Sunday also,perhaps more some weeks, because Sunday is the day before Monday. I neverreally understood this concept until two or three years ago.

    I love Thursday. I didn’t always loveThursday—in fact, I hated it. It seemed like everything went wrong onThursdays. If I woke up late because I didn’t hear my alarm clock, and thendrove off to work without any breakfast, finally arriving twenty miles later, inWisconsin Dells only to discover that I’d left my work shirt in the dryer, Iknew it was Thursday. After a while, Wednesday was no longer the day in themiddle of the week, it was the day before Thursday. Friday wasn’t the daybefore restful Saturday—oh, no. Friday was the day after Thursday.

    Everything important in my life happens onThursday. To begin with, almost twenty-three years ago, I was born on aThursday. I don’t much remember it, but my mother tells me it was a blusteryday.

    It was on a Thursday in July of 2004 that Icalled my dad fromm Michiganto tell him that he needed to bring me home from the ministry program that Iwas in. I had made my first real friends there, and had even fallen in lovewith one of them, or thought I had. The same day, I told my friend that I wasleaving, and made him cry.

    Tears come on Thursday. I cried one Thursdayin September of 2004, when I found a stash of love-letters to mysixteen-year-old sister from a dirtball who worked in the meat department. Healready had a child with his last girlfriend, and he wasn’t a Christian.

    I cried for that little sister again thissummer. The day before Thursday, she announced she was not going to collegewith me. The next day she moved out without a word or a note. That was aThursday, too.

    Some things happened on Thursdays that we hadno control over at all. My oldest sister, Melanie, was carrying a son inSeptember of 2005. The doctor told her that he saw something—a spot—on thebaby’s liver.

    “Don’t worry about it,” he assured her. “It’sprobably nothing, but we’ll have a specialist take a look at it anyway.”

    On a Thursday, she went to see thespecialist. The nurse came in, gelled Melanie’s belly great with child, andturned on the ultrasound machine. Not five minutes passed when the nurseswitched it off and hurried from the room.

    We prepared ourselves for everything when weknew Owen might be in trouble. Maybe he would have some mental retardation;maybe he would be a midget. We never thought he wouldn’t be. Melanie called us from the hospital to tellus that Owen died.

    Not every important thing that happens onThursday is a bad thing. My best friend, Haley, lives in Texas. Whenever she comes to visit me, shealways arrives on Thursday—but sometimes she leaves on Thursday. Every Thursdaynight for three years, Haley and I would spend hours on the phone, closing thedistance between Texasand Wisconsinwith a phone cord.   

    My brother DJ got engaged on a Thursday, asdid my sister Melanie. These were wonderful important things—things that Icould chalk against a prodigal and a short pregnancy.  

    I declared to my mother a year ago that Iwould marry on a Thursday. If the best thing that could ever happen to mehappened on a Thursday, I knew it would redeem the day for me for the rest ofmy life.

    On the day before a Thursday, I received anemail from a dear friend of mine, asking if I’d take a walk with him the nextday. We walked and talked for an hour and half, halfway through which Markasked if we could be more than friends.

    “Why?” I asked, dizzy with happiness.

    “Because you’re the only girl I’ve everwanted to ask.”

    I had been fighting my love for him for overa year. I tried not to think about how devoted he was to God, how tender he wastoward other people, and how alike we were in every way. I tried to avoid himby taking the long ways around to church and chapel so that I wouldn’t seehim—so that I would know that I didn’t do anything to make something happen. Iknew that if it was right, God must do it. Finally the time was right to takethe step toward Mark, instead of away from him.

    We began courting that day. The timing wasperfect, and I know because my Heavenly Father made sure that it was aThursday. It may be a long time, and I’ll try to act surprised when the timecomes, but it wouldn’t surprise me at all if we get engaged on a Thursday.

    I look forward to Thursday now, and have fora long time. Whatever is going to happen, my Heavenly Father knows what day ofthe week it is. He is not surprised by anything that does happen. I get towatch Him work in my life, and in the lives of those around me. Thursday standsas a day of testing, of growth—and of fulfillment. I will never forget theimportance of being Thursday.

    NOTE: I did get engaged on a Thursday. In fact, I got married on a Thursday. Mark and I celebrate Thursday every week: this is our 232st week being more than friends.

Friday, 20 April 2012

  • Blessed by blessing

    It never ceases to amaze me how when God calls forth an "interruption" in my day to serve someone in greater need than I, that He can make it seem like it was more for me than for them.

    Mark and I packed up a rather hodge-podge dinner and took it to the hospital for two suffering children. They await word on their father's condition: he has colon cancer. The son is only 25, and the daughter 17. "Maybe they need a home-cooked meal," my husband said. We brought offerings of venison and apricot kringle on glass plates in a hospital cafeteria and we didn't hear the end of it. But when we got home, Mark and I sat down on the couch to wait out the closing of the office and he smiled warmly and said, "You know what? I was blessed by that."

    Why do I always think that serving others will be some great sacrifice? In truth, it is a joy to give unreservedly to others. And I got to live out a bit of Philippians 2 last night. Thank You for that living illustration, Lord. And may I so readily jump at the opportunity to serve the next time You call...

    Embrace the magic.

Wednesday, 18 April 2012

  • Christ and the Church

    It is late to be blogging, at least for me, but I have at least 30 minutes before the office closes; who knows but I may sell 10 rooms in 30 minutes? So I wait until 10pm, when I can join my hubby in slumber upstairs.

    He's here, on the couch. He didn't want to go to bed without me, though I knew full well he would pass out here anyway, and it would be as if he wasn't with me at all. But his sweetness overrides my foreknowledge, and if the soft clicking of the keys in some way breaks through the fog of his fevered sleep to comfort his aching spirit, who am I to say him nay, or press my point?

    Since we were married, he has been consistent in one important point in particular: we always go up to bed together. If he wants to stay up scanning e-bay, I snuggled next to him on the couch. If I need to stay up to watch the office, he cozies under a blanket nearby. It may seem small--trivial--but we love to begin and end our day together, no matter what it looks like. As a young bride (only 4 months married), I waited until 2am for him to arrive home from a youth group rally he was chaperoning. And I rise every morning to make him breakfast, saving the occasional morning he manages to sneak away without my notice (usually I'm sick those days!).

    I realize that this practice has gone miles toward keeping us from going to bed angry. How do you cuddle someone you won't speak to? We intend to keep it up throughout our marriage, however seemingly impractical it be to more seasoned couples.

    How interesting: if I was careful to open and close each day with Christ, how differently would my day look? Would I be in more open communication with Him throughout? Would I feel "on top" of my to-do list, rather than chasing after it all day? Would I not get peeved with His "interruptions" to my plans or wishes? I wonder. I think an experiment is in order...

    Wake up to the magic...

    Note: my husband just smiled in his sleep. I wonder what he's dreaming of?

Monday, 16 April 2012

  • Windy Weather

    Storm watches, 35mph gusts, and warm rain in cold air--this is the Wisconsin I remember. I remember Spring being violent and unpredictable. I remember rain being hard and fast. I remember trees being thick with green leaves and birds. I remember thick, green grass full of interesting crawlies. I also remember ticks.

    I found one of my son the other day. By the time I saw it, it had burrowed its nasty head into my little son's flesh and had inflamed the area. Twain seemed unperturbed, but his father and I were thoroughly disgusted and horrified. We spent the better part of two hours attempting to remove the wretched parasite, only to detach the body, leaving the head stuck inside. Now, we're on a quest for a family doctor so that we can get our little one "checked out." He needs some vaccinations, anyway.

    I have to say: I felt like a terrible mom when I found it. It was behind his left armpit, a little underneath his shoulder. I could have easily changed clothes and diapers for 2 or 3 days before noticing the intruder. I have no idea how long it's been there, or if my boy could have lymes'. I'm carefully monitoring the site for the tell-tale rash, or any other symptoms that seem unusual. So far--praise Jesus--it seems to be getting better, not worse.

    Names of moms I know began running through my mind, "So-and-so would have noticed it...", "So-and-so probably remembers to check her kids over every time they come in the house..."... that kind of thing. But how ridiculous. How can I compare my responsibilities to others'? How can I saw I'm a worse mom, or a better one, because I let my son play outside in the grass?

    The truth is: I am responsible for him. If someone else had been watching him--or not watching him--whatever happened would still be my responsibility. He is my son, my charge, my treasure. I do not care for him because he deserves it, but because he needs it, because he doesn't understand so much of the world that I do, and he needs someone to protect him. I'm sure glad that my Great Protector never flags at His post!

    I've been in Philippians lately, and chapter 2 exhorts, "Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus..." Then, he goes on to describe how Christ gave up His right to be recognized as God, and died the most humiliating death possible for my sake. Was it because I deserved it? Because I was worth the price? No indeed. He ascribed worth to me. I am His treasure, and no matter how worthless I seem--or am!--He gave up His rights to claim me for His own.

    How can I do less for others? I lay aside my right to clean hands in order to change my son's soiled diapers, not because he is worthy (he's only a year old--what has he done?!), but because I ascribe value to him. As I should always ascribe value to others. THIS then, is the mind of Christ Jesus I am to have: ascribe value to others, regardless of worth, and then lay aside my own rights and honors as a child of God or a human being to serve those around me.

    I may sink, but I won't go under. Jesus won't allow it. Let me lay aside my life fr my son, for my husband, for the strip-joint owner next door (no joke), as my Jesus did for me. Let me be mindful of serving others, let me be watching for the ticks that creep in.

    Lord, teach me to watch over my treasures more carefully. And teach me to treasure every human life I meet.

Tuesday, 10 April 2012

  • For reasons that should be obvious, I did not announce when my husband and son flew off to California for a week, leaving me completely alone to run the motel. How strange for me to drive away from the airport without even a car-seat in the back! I won't explain all the reasons why it was important, even thought I couldn't go along... this will simply be a "crash course" post about my experience.

    Sunday - w/wringing hands: "How am I supposed to live an entire week without them?! What will I DO?!"
    Monday - w/energy: "Wow; a whole day to myself... what will I DO?!"
    Tuesday - w/waning energy: "There's so much to do I'm not sure if I'll get any time to myself this week at all..."
    Wednesday - w/sluggish steps: "Only four days to go..."
    Thursday - w/stuffed head: "There goes my to-do list, while I've got this nasty cold."
    Friday - w/stuffed head & fever: "Ugh."
    Saturday - w/stuffed head, fever, hormones, & tears: "Is THIS time to myself?!"
    Sunday - w/unpopped ears, cracked throat, and flu-accented voice: "Baybe I cad bake it drew chuch." [Translation: "Maybe I can make it through church."]

    As you can see, the week didn't go as I'd planned. Does anything? Mostly I've learned to roll with the punches and I don't get upset when things don't go according to plan, but I had hoped that if I had all this time that I blame Mark and Twain for snitching, I might at least get some big projects done. My list barely saw three things get crossed off it, due to things springing up with the motel work, and the beastly influenza that I am still fighting. Even now, looking back? I think, "Lord, what was the point of this week? What lesson was I supposed to be learning?" Maybe endurance.

    Because when Mama gets sick, someone still has to answer the phone, vacuum the floor (yes, this must be done every day, fever or not), fold motel sheets--and that is without tossing hubby and baby into the mix. Before I drove to the airport to retrieve my life, I de-germed the house at least five times, praying that Mark doesn't get sick. For you see, I'm not sure I can manage me, Baby Who, the motel, Twain, AND a sick Mark.

    Sometimes I feel sorry for women that don't experience this life, though. I am as "barefoot-and-pregnant-in-the-kitchen-doormat" as a wife could get, except that I am queen of my realm. My king is pleased with my work, and my little prince will grow into a home and a family where both parents (bar death) are present, where Mama is there is bring you soup when you get sick, and where the most important thing next to God is family. Just like the home I grew up in.

    I am fulfilled. I am delighted to serve my family.


    p.s. - This much needs to be said, though almost totally unrelated to the above post. My parents and friends took most excellent care of me while my husband and son were away. My little brother, Sam, spent every night here with me even though he was fighting the flu, too, and probably would have been comfier in his own bed. Dad called almost every day to check up on me. And the prize goes to the one who took off work early so that she could bring me meds and my favorite comfort soup (Mrs. Grass): my mother. What a blessing to be near my family again!


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